Well Today was pretty normal. Tutoring. Studying. Homework. Lecture. In class movie. Calling my mom. Going to the library. My phone freezing up. People giving me the stink eye because I quit my sorority. Whatever.
I've been day dreaming about him a lot lately. I want to see him. I am dying to see him and to think I have to go weeks without seeing him. It could turn into months. I can't even imagine that. I just want to hang out with him. I wonder if he ever thinks about me. I really doubt it. But I think about him so much. I get in class and get bored and day dream about him. Idk why him. Why I am so attracted to him. I never felt this way about anyone before. I've met a lot of cute guys before but I have never been hung up on one guy for so long. I have never felt such intense attraction to a guy. Maybe it's timing too. Not only did I come across a guy I really found attractive I also found someone at a time where I really wanted somebody.
This will all make sense someday. Not because I am trying to make myself feel better because that's the way things work in life. I know Cam was a shitty friend to me so I could find easy, carefree friendships where we include everyone and it's not a big deal who we invite. I know Sam happened so I could learn to close my legs. I know Courtney came in my life to teach me how not to center your life on a relationship and to run- like hell away from unhealthy relationships. And Tyler showed me that you should crush on someone day by day and not all in one day.
So tomorrow I go to school, come home, study, walk 5 miles, watch 7th Heaven, study, and then sleep. It's not an exciting life but I am so very thankful for everything I have.
I wish someone wanted me.
Listening:Wanted- Hunter Hayes
Featuring: Long hair, simple diamond necklace, long hair she don't care, cute cheek bones, pale skin, white teeth, ralph lauren v neck, pottery barn bed circa 2009
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